These last few weeks have been very stressful. I’ve felt absolutely hopeless. As the time goes on, it’s starting to feel a lot better. I’m so grateful for the people I have around me who keep reminding me that things aren’t really that bad after all.
I’ve been getting some quality matches on the dating apps too. That’s been giving me reassurance that I am desirable or that people do have interest in me. I’ve had a low confidence in myself lately so it feels good to know that things aren’t completely hopeless.
I can’t describe how lucky I feel to have been able to get out of that toxic situation. It feels like a miracle that after everything that went down that I’m able to sort of walk away relative penalty free.
I will forever be grateful for her. I’m always going to love her and offer myself to her and I’m sorry for the way that I’ve treated or reacted to her, but the separation was exactly what was suppose to happen. In some ways, I think things needed to happen in this extreme way for us to both be able to find our peace. I’m just so incredibly sorry that it had to be that way in order to get there.
But I do feel hopeful that things are going to turn out ok. I got the money for the sale of my car and I don’t have to worry about rent for a little while so I’ve built and will continue to build a monster savings. I think that’s the part that has me feeling the most hopeful. Money doesn’t buy happiness but it can buy your way out of trouble. That’s the peace I’ve been looking for.
