On The Horizon

I’ve got a few things coming up that I’m kind of excited about. The biggest thing is that I’ve applied to a new place to live. It’s cheaper than the…

Memory Questions

I still think about her when I pass her exit on the highway. I wonder if she ever thinks of me. Is it still hatred or disgust? Has she erased…

September Thoughts

The stinging pain of being rejected seems to be gone. There was once a thought that I’d never be able to live without her, but I’m beginning to see that…

Feeling Hopeful

These last few weeks have been very stressful. I’ve felt absolutely hopeless. As the time goes on, it’s starting to feel a lot better. I’m so grateful for the people…

Take A Deep Breath

I’m mostly good. Most of the time. But I’m still struggling. I really hate how things turned out. I would have done anything to fix things before they got to…

Living In LaLa Land

I still keep hoping her name is going to light up my phone. That she’s going to reach out and ask if I’m OK or if I wanted to meet…

Late Advice

I read something this afternoon and it made me reflect a little. Where was this advice years ago? It said: “If you keep your expectations low, you’ll never be disappointed.”…

Clarity and Peace

I think I’ve found some clarity. I’m breathing a little easier than I have been lately. I think I’ve made assumptions about the true intentions that weren’t really accurate. I…

Patterns and Psychols 

“I’ve seen this before.” “You sure love torturing yourself.” “You guys are toxic, but if this is what you want, nobody’s stopping you.” This is the kind of shit I…