It’s true. I do still look. I’m curious what you’re up to and I know you like to show off. You’re not much different from me. You want people to know what you’re doing, what you’re up to, what you’re thinking about, how you look, what you’re dealing with. You express yourself publicly, and yes I still look.
Maybe so much time has passed that the want is fully gone, but when I do go in and take a look, I’m so grateful. I’m so grateful it didn’t work out. I’m so thankful that you don’t want me in your life. Your life looks awful. It looks hard. It looks miserable. It looks exhausting.
The Australian one once said to me, “you’re not in love with me, you’re in love with the idea of me.” Those are words that echo in my brain even to this day. If I ever forget everything about that one, that’s a quote that I’ll never be able to shake. It’s something that’s proven true time and time again. I was in love with the idea of them.
But I’m not anymore.
Yeah I still look. And yeah I still wish the best for you.
I’ll never stop loving you no matter what.
But thank God I get to do it from a distance.
